My battle with social anxiety and fear
I have struggled with social anxiety for the last couple of years. I started college last autumn. Being in class at college became so hard and overwhelming for me, it felt like an out of body experience. I felt nervous, anxious, nauseous. It was like I couldn't breathe. When I came home from class, I couldn't stop crying or feeling down. It felt like a huge struggle for me and I wanted, more than anything, to feel normal and okay in my own body and mind. After a couple of months I went to the school counsellor every other week and it helped so much to talk about my problems and the way I was feeling. She helped me a lot and sometimes it helps to realize you have a problem to be able to deal with it. I feel better now than I did last semester and when I look back, I have realized I have come a long way.
I have struggled with the fear of crossing the street for the last 6 years. Sometimes when I see a car approach it can get too overwhelming and I can make a detour just so I don't have to see it. When I cross the pavement I feel anxious, my heart starts racing and it's the worst feeling I know. I thought by now, the fear would go away, but it doesn't. i think with time though it will get better and I am gonna try and stay positive through it all.
I think during all these battles, it has been very important to put myself first, focusing on what feels right for me. I think music have helped, especially "Hold Me" by Rebecca, it speaks to me on so many levels and it helps me get through the day.
Written by Christina Faye